Friday, April 25, 2008

Funerals and Getting Over God

Marla's funeral was something. A real tribute to an amazing woman, rather than a weeping and wailing mourning service. I saw people I hadn't seen for 34 years, and had to introduce myself to lots of people.

Some of you know, I'm working on a memoir about my life as a Pastor's Wife. That chapter of my life ended twenty years ago; however, the effects of it linger...I don't feel as if there are any lasting negative effects, once I got over my guilt for leaving the life.

Now, I think the effects are simply that I think seriously about spiritual matters. I can't take them lightly, even though sometimes I'd like to. I read any essay by Julia Sweeney (thanks, Stever), and many of her struggles were exactly parallel to mine. Her final conclusion is that there can be no god. I guess I still struggle with reaching that final conclusion, but I'm thinking about it a lot. Maybe I'll keep you posted!


Rachael Hanel said...

I'm so glad you got to attend a celebratory funeral. There definitely need to be more of those.

I'm curious to read something by Sweeney. I'd be curious to see how she reaches her conclusion. Thanks for the tip!

Rebecca (Becky) Fjelland Davis said...

I can get you a copy of the essay! Thanks for visiting my blog!